Introduction: some may know most of it already, and some wanted to know... soooo here goes the story for me and Bu/Laura
She may add her viewpoints in it laters as well
2002
I was in the middle of a messy relationship, second time I tried to cope with the girl who was my first gf, things were getting really bad. Then some day I got a mail, a girl from England praising me for my Final Fantasy 6 fanart that she saw online we started talking by mail, since I like to be friendly to all ppl who praises me for my work...
One month later my relationship ended, I was happy and radiant to be rid from my ex gf, no hard feelings, just happy to have her as just a friend and to be free from relationships
In fact... I truly wanted to be alone for some time, and I told everyone that my next girlfriend was to be really my soulmate!
As time passed Laura and I got closer and closerr in our mails and I got gradually desperate to notice I was falling for her... If I didn't want relationships, let alone be withy a girl far younger than me living in another continent (I live in Brasil)... so I tried to avoid this feeling... tried to go out with another girl over here, but things always gone wrong... (or right in my actual viewpoint:P)...
Then she was to send me her photos, I was not giving much importance at that, but really wished that she was ugly, after all, if not, it would just become a plus to my feelings... then the mail came... as I open the photo... "nooooooo she is not beautiful, she is perfect!! Exactly like I always dreamt!" and I remember that when I replied her saying she is quite, she said that she cried... that really made me want to hug her there.
But yet I was determined to avoid such a risky relationship and tried to know another girl... but that was not good either... then Valentine's day came. Laura was really defensive by that time and always said she hateds romantic stuff and even valentine's day, but even so I decided to send a card, as a friend... And in the reply she simple devastated any defenses I could have... she said she cried and that I was a Beam of hope in her life... That made me remember how I always wanted to know a girlfriend by saving/protecting her someway
Then I decided that crazy or not, I should try to be with her because I loved the girl!
Sooo slowly I got to talk to her and then I asked her to be my girlfriend... and she accepted
Surprisingly enough, opposed to all the anti-romantic attitude she usually shown, with me, she became the most sweet girl ever... caring, kind, romantic... all that I always wished for...
Time passed and we got through a lot together, but many problems got around us... we had arguments on almost a daily basis and she seemed very depressed... then one day I decided that I should break up with her (this was in the middle of 2003) so she could find a guy who could make her truly happy... but as I woke up and stated that, the chain on the dragon necklace she gave me broke apart... that gave me the creeps... then I postponed the break up...
So finally came a day when we had a big fight and I decided to truly brealk up... I felt like i had failed in protecting her and making her happy... and I knew Id miss her, but we broke up, stayed as friends though...
Since september 2003 til april 2005 we had a troublesome friendship, with both trying to find someone that was like each other... I got really disappointed when a girlfriend was not so wonderful with me as Laura, or when they complained about me for some reason... also my self confidence dropped by the feeling of failing Laura, and worst everytime she felt sad...
Then this year a friend introduced me to a girl, for some reason she reminded me of Laura and I gone blindly towards her simply for the idea of that resemblance, but again things gone bad and then I saw that what I truly hoped was to find someone like my dear plincess (as I call Laura
)... but yet I kept that to me...
Next day I told Laura about my break up, she was very sharp towards me, no matter what I said... and the next day was the same, then I asked "What is all that for?" And she admited that she never accepted our break up... really I was expecting something like that, but my heart still jumped to my mouth... for instance I realized that she was all I wanted for a girl in my life, and it brought all the memories we had... from the great times til the crushing pain frrom when we broke up... then I was taken by a terrible feeling of confusion and responsability, felt like the universe's destiny was in my hands... because for me, in that momment, she was like the universe
Then I explaned her all the reasons for our break up and after a week we decided to go back together
Now... here we are. together and happy, never thought someone exactly like I dreamed since childhood would even exist, let alone love me back as I love her
So that is it, thanx for the patience to everyone who reads and thank you honey for being part of that story that changed my life in the best possible way =^.^=
